by Stewart Resmer
For the past week I have been lying to the closest person in my life and I can’t do it anymore.
I won’t do it any more.
I have been deliberately avoiding the other people in my life because of my lie.
When i have been forced to interact with strangers at the food store to pay for my food or buy my gas i have been concealing my lie and so in furtherance of this lie I have been wearing a pair of large cheap sunglasses.
I have been lying about taking allergy medication to explain my bloodshot eyes and running nose and general lethargy.
I can’t live this lie anymore, my very soul is weeping over what the Trump administration is doing to innocent children who through no fault of their own are being held in federal detention facilities not unlike hostages used as bargaining chips.
The bloodshot red eyes, and the running nose may not stop anytime soon over all of this, my angst may not ease the heavy weight upon my chest. But I am not going to lie about why any more.
My father was a refugee in world war ll who has a young polish Catholic fled the Nazis and escaped through the French underground and he never spoke of it.
At 19 years old I saw the refugees run in South Vietnam with my own eyes as my cohort moved up to seek out and destroy my enemy as belligerent forces collided and we could do nothing for those refugees, infants and toddlers in their arms, while young and old fled in silence.
I have been lying, and I am not going to lie about it anymore.
I am ashamed of my country.
Stewart Resmer is a resident of Wayne, New Jersey
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