By Corinne Wnek
I don’t know what it is about New Year’s Eve that puts me in such a funk. Am I the only one who feels like this? One minute I’m flying high on Christmas only to begin my descent on December 31. Parties for ringing in the New Year promise to lighten the wallet by about one hundred fifty dollars per person, so that would make anyone want to cry. But you get the noisemakers and funny hats, too, and the chance to see how people behave, or misbehave, when they’re all liquored up.
Overly made up middle aged ladies excited about doing the chicken dance? Twenty-somethings dancing in five-inch heels and sparkly dresses that are so short they look like tops? Main course entrees that I can’t even pronounce? I can’t relate to these party images. I feel like a New Year’s failure only it’s still 2010. Ahh, maybe that’s why I’m in a funk.
A few years back, okay, maybe more than just a few years, I would be prepping for weeks for a special, whoopee celebration like New Year’s Eve. But now, this kind of affair doesn’t appeal to me and, suddenly, I understand the expression that ‘youth is wasted on the young’. I can’t compete anymore and I can’t accept except defeat either. C’mon. Would anyone really wear sensible shoes to a New Year’s Eve shindig? No, its best I stay put and welcome Dick Clark back into my home again this year.
I’m also a bundle of mixed emotions just before that ball in Times Square heads south. I feel sorry for some things I did or didn’t do or didn’t do with the right attitude. So, I half-heartedly resolve that I’ll try harder, yet again, beginning January 1. But I’ve been trying harder to remedy some of my imperfections ever since the 60s. It’s time to know when to fold or when to hold, just like the song says.
I think I am going to give myself a break this year and lower my expectations for myself. It’s time I realize that I’m super, but not super human. No matter how hard I strive to be perfect, I will say the wrong thing to someone when I should hold my tongue, I won’t eat healthy food as often as I should, I will likely pay full price for something the day before it goes on sale and I will probably say ‘yes’ to a request for a favor from someone when I really want to say ‘no’. What I need to do is to learn to accept myself and all of my flaws come this New Year’s Eve. Maybe then, I’ll become a little more sensitive to the imperfections in others.
That’s a resolution I think I can keep.
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